Oh Man! WTF is Going on Here?

Okay, yesterday I felt like shit. I didn't take a nap when my sister did, so I was exhausted. I hadn't eaten much either. I made a grilled cheese for my sister and after she begged me for it, she didn't eat it. So I said eat and she took like 5 bites. I threw it away and put here down for a nap. I was irritated because I felt like a bad sister because she wouldn't eat, so I didn't eat out of guilt. Later when mom got home, Kayla woke up and I wanted to get some corned beef hash because I was hungry (it started bothering me). When I said I wasn't really planning on sharing with Kayla, my mom got on me and put a fact out that made no sense (she said that WE used to eat a whole can TOGETHER when I was YOUNGER and had a SMALLER APPETITE!) and then I had to share with her and guees what...I WASN'T FULL! I swear that they are slowly starving me. They try to trick me into thinking that the foods they buy is something I've eaten before because they know I won't remember. They refuse to buy the foods I like so I'll have no choice. I say I want to gain weight, but yet I stay at 132 lbs. I hate this so much.

Another thing is I base my crush status on people I know I can probably go somewhere with (gemini and virgo). Virgo hasn't worked twice and gemini....I'm beginning to second guess the theory of me getting along with anybody outside the family cirle who is gemini or virgo. I'll probably just play hard to get and just ignore a whole bunch of guys except my guy friends.

Plus one thing I have noticed is that my mother half-asses stuff I ask of her. Her latest favorite is my hair. She washes.....twists half of it and briads that part wet ( we have crinkles ladies and gentlemen). Then something comes up, a relative or friend calls and she just has to pull away (she talks so long on the phone that the other side of my hair dries out), or she just has to handle something on the computer (and she really can't because then Kayla mysteriously wakes up from her nap and wants to cuddle and play while she's typing some big paper or looking up something [probably another food recipe I don't eat] so it takes a half hour longer). Then when she finally comes back, the other side of my hair is dry (but it will crinkle because it will be in for a while [she says that now...imagine you come in to school from a humid day and not only does your scalp dry out from no oil {she refusese to get ti because she thinks that gfrease will solve all our problems and that the money for that can go to red wine....drunk} but one side of your hair is flat and the other crinkled, so you look like a hobo]). Then when it goes flat she says...Oh my, it must be the humidity......DUH YOU FUCKING IDIOT, AND NOT ONLY THAT BUT I LOOK LIKE SHIT BECAUSE THE OTHER SIDE ISN'T FLAT SINCE YOU ONLY DID ONE SIDE CORRECTLY! I have no idea what to do and I can't talk to them because somewhere in the middle I'll get cut off and then everything else at that moment will sound stupid so I just give up. I just want a break. I hope that this bad luck streak doesn't continue through next year. I hope it goes away fast (unless mom's new year resolution is to be more off a bitch).

I feel terrible right now (for some reason, after expressing anger I feel depressed, probably because it's not really talking to anybody). I hope Daddy checks my blog, because I need a Daddy Hug....

Depressed...
K.Girl