Stressed Out

Okay. I am not feeling well because my bronchitis decided to react to a cold so badly that everytime I move too much, breathe through my mouth for too long, or the air isn't evenly cool and warm, then I start hacking like I'm trying to bring up a lung. My mom is being a little crabby lately, to my sister most especially, and is really getting on my nerves. When I blast my music my parents tell me turn it down or put on your headphones. I can't blast my music when they aren't home because I have to listen out for the phone or I'm watching my sister, who is a spark kill when all she wants to hear is the same lame song Dad plays on his computer. I'm so tired because I haven't been sleeping well and I'm up late from all my homework, but on the weekends my mom won't let me sleep in because she needs me to watch Kayla or help clean up. You guys told me a while back to thigns on my own [weither you guys are sleeping or not], SO WHY CAN'T YOU!! WHAT DID YOU DO WHEN I WAS A CAREFREE TWO YEAR OLD AND YOU HAD TO CLEAN UP BY YOURSELF BECAUSE THE OTHER PARENT WAS AT WORK OR OUT HANDLING BUSINESS, HUH? WHY IS IT THAT EVERYTHING YOU TELL ME TO BE INDEPENDENT ON, YOU HAVE TO BOTHER ME FOR? IT'S NOT FAIR! I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU CAN YELL AT ME AND HURT MY FEELINGS AND THEN YOU WONDER WHY I'M DEPRESSED AND NOT TALKING OR EATING. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. I THINK ABOUT RUNNING AWAY, BUT THAT'S STUPID BECAUSE I HAVE IT ALOT BETTER THAN MOST PEOPLE DO SO SHOULD HAVE NOTHING TO COMPLAIN ABOUT. I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO AND MY FRIENDS ARE PROBABLY GETTING TIRED OF ME COMPLANING ABOUT THE SAME THINGS. THERE ARE SO MANY RULES TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. DON'T DO THIS OR YOU'LL DAMAGE YOUR HAIR, SKIN, FACE AND EVERYTHING! SURE IT MAY NOT SEEM LIKE A BIG DEAL BUT IT IS! I WANT A BREAK. BEING A GIRL IS HARD ENOUGH. IT'S NOT FUN WHEN YOU TRY TO TALK AND YOUR FEELINGS GET HURT EVEN MORE. IT'S NOT FUN WHEN YOUR HAVE TO GO INTO THE MEN'S SECTION FOR SHOES AND THE WOMENS SECTION FOR CLOTHES BECAUSE YOUR SO TALL AND YOU KEEP GROWING AND YOUR FEET ARE SO BIG. YOU CAN'T FIND ANYTHING CUTE THAT WON'T LOOK TO GROWN UP AND WON'T MAKE YOU LOOK LIKE YOU WORK AT A STRIP CLUB ON THE DAILY BASIS! I mentioned my want for a boyfriend to my Dad and he basically said "No fucking way,". Sure it may not seem like a big deal, but it is for someone who has never been liked by boys, period because you seemed annoying and obnoxious, it is. It would mean alot to a girl like me for a guy I like to ask me out somewhere. Plus it's hard to find a decent guy in Georgia who is taller than you, cute, and treats you with respect. Most of them I'm just not interested in, I don't find them cute, or they are GHETTO, COUNTRY BUMPKINS! I HAVE A CRUSH ON A DECENT GUY, BUT HE ALL READY HAS A GIRLFRIEND AND HE'S NOT INTERESTED!

There is more on my stress in my other blog: www.loaths.blogspot.com ; so go there and find out the rest.

To be continued..................