Failed, Hurt and Plain Depressed.

Okay I have to be nice about what I say because I've noticed that my dad has been constantly checking my blog for updates. How can I put this...*sigh*. I don't want to hurt my parents feelings and if I don't write out my feelings, I'm going to feel restricted and get over stressed.

*sigh*

Let's see, I don't have a halloween costume because...well...we couldn't get the stuff for it (it was simple and clean too...black jeans and a black sweater, cat ears and a tail). I was going to be "The Great Kitten Goddess Kikgame", but i'll just be myself and deal with every boy saying the phrase "You wear that mask everyday,".

I haven't gotten my hair done, I don't have my orchestra supplies, and...I had a crappy week and weekend. I'm still having a bad luck streak. Alicia was still my best chibi friend, losing a...should I say somewhat good friend is still hard. I'm not going to give in to everyone's daily expectations (everyone expects us to say sorry and be friends again, but I'm not going to let that happen).

On my weekend off that I was looking forward to RELAXING on... turned into a day where I ended up babysitting, and the money I got for it I have to use for lunch. I had three bad summers in a row. My weekends are bad and whenever I plan something with a friend or with my parents, it gets cancelled or put off until later, kind of like everything else concerning me.

I was suppossed to get my supplies last weekend, but I didn't because my sister had pnemonia and we had to go to the hospital (I don't blame anyone but the doctor who didn't notice it earlier in the month). My hair getting done has been put off until basically 2010. Weekends....why do I bother. I spend the day with family thinking it's going well, and then a (as Mommy says) loud discussion begins to bloom turning the night into a battle field (dodge anything that looks like a falling star).

I have a cold, a really bad one (I'm afraid that I might have pnemonia too). My dad's throat hurts and he keeps constantly blaming me for it. Just so you know, you could've gotten it from it being airborne OUTSIDE, at work or from someone at the hospital (heck even at my school, Kayla's school, or from Kayla herself).

I'm sleepy and I have school tomorrow.
Tired and hurt,
K.Girl

I HATE FRIDAY THE 13TH!!!!

I had the day off today b'cause today was a teacher work day. My alarm clock went off b'cause I forgot to cancel it and my sister woke up not to long after. I brought her to my parents room and the morning eventually turned into a regular, work week morning. It also turned into every other day where there is an argument (Mom says conversation to cover it up). I couldn't realy go back to sleep in the first place b'cause of the alarm waking me up, so it was twice as hard with the huge argument upfront. I blocked them out with Shinjitsu no Uta and turned it up as loud as possible. Later, Dad and I went to the store so I could get some "easy to cook" stuff for the day since I was going to be home by myself.

I started cleaning up the living room and the kitchen with some music right before my computer slowed down. I turned it off in frustration while I cursed the day and brought some CD's and my radio into the kitchen. I hid under my quilt while watching T.V. before I closed the patio door b'cause it got too cold for comfort. I got bored and tired and went to take a nap, I went out hard too. I woke up to my sister crying about not having her way, as usual.

I got up and searched for some more anime music on www.youtube.com, I found the full beginning and ending themes to Pita Ten, Cardcaptor Sakura, and Tokyo Mew Mew. Everything is fine now. I supposed to be going over to my friend Niki's place tomorrow so we can go to the Powder Puff game and then over to her house to watch Princess Mononoke on Cartoon Network.

I blame today also for the following reasons:

1. I had to retype this b'cause my paragraph got messed up.
2. My space bar is acting like a backspace/delete button for some reason I do not know off.
3. I'm stuck listening to this stupid toddler music every night (I'm going to burn this CD on my 18th b-day).

Plus Monday is supposed to be crappy, not Friday. Friday is your friend, Monday isn't, unless it is a day off. That's an exception.

Got to go and find a way to drown out this music.

Sayonara,

K.Girl

The 411 on the Life as a Teenage Daughter

Nothing much is happening with the family. Everything is cool. Dad's power supply blew a fuse, so I try to get as much computer time in as possible. There isn't much food in the house, but that will be fixed on Friday I'm sure. I feeling kind of stressed and depressed because of school. Hopefully that'll fix itself.

Later...
K.Girl

P.S. Go to www.loaths.blogspot.com for the 411 on the highschool drama.

I Love My Parents....I Hate Myself.

I feel so stupid and flawed all of a sudden. Like I can't do anything right. I started an arguement with my parents yesterday and I just disrespected my Mommy again today. This is the reason for the title. I really don't like my self right now, and it is all because I love my parents and hate to disrespect them and I just did. It's just a basic guilt trip that added on to the rest of the stuff on my mind. I need a cookie.

Later.